Long time no see.
It only takes a bit of flattery to spur me into action. One nice comment and I think 'hmm, maybe I should start writing again.
I'm not going to read my last post as I reckon it will make me puke. Thinking about that bloke usually makes me feel like that. I've never been able to work out how you can go from thinking that you might just fall in love with someone to wondering how on earth you were ever attracted to them. Ever. I actually feel physically repulsed at the thought of him and then immediately after that feel guilty for feeling like that because he didn't really do anything wrong. He just drank to much. And smoked too much. And called me 'babe'. And he'd walk in to my flat and say 'put telly on babe'. I should've known then.
I blame my friends. They're always saying 'oh give him a chance... don't do what you normally do and find reasons for it not to work'. I'm not FINDING reasons, they are just there.
Anyway - no chance of me being a smug couply person.
Muchos good news though; I managed to land my dream job... Now all I have to do is make sure I consistently sell loads of shit (not literally shit) in order to keep it. No pressure. It means working 60 hour weeks, if not 70 but I'm hoping that it's going to be worth it. I'm in this one for the long haul.
The only trouble with working this hard is that you lose your ability to spend your time doing trivial stuff like watching TV or noodling on Facebook. Not much of a sacrifice though really.
The other thing that I find slightly irritating is that I appear to have swapped one bunch of negative colleagues for another. Seriously - the guys at my new company don't know their born... They get leads passed to them all the time and do little or no self generating - yet still they moan that they don't get enough. I'm concentrating my efforts on spending as much time as possible with the positive people. I need to keep myself on a high.
I'll try to be a bit better at posting but for now... Toodle pip!